day: thirty six

Tiring and stupid day today. Last night didn't end up so well. Let's just say I broke down late at night. But anyways, the weather made me feel weird today. It was really windy and hot and then it was raining and cold. My stupid self decided to wear shorts just to make up for the fact that I was in sweatpants the day before.

Piano was good. I really need to start getting more serious with playing my instruments (and everything else). And then it was tutor and I felt a tad unfocused. This guy from melbourne high made it look like he was breezing through it. The other girl reminded me distinctly from someone. She's very nice (I shouldn't have judged her for wearing a load of makeup, I guess I should stop being so envious of people who seem socially famous), I guess I should learn from her and try to actually start a conversation. I need to be a better person than the crappy person I was last year. Saying that, it's definitely not "new year, new me", it's more a gradual change, because a better me ain't gonna happen with a click of a finger.

School tomorrow, though. I'm so scared of this year because I'm so paranoid. Every year, I still feel like a year seven. I'm so timid and shy, I don't even know the whole year level yet and so I'm always having to introduce myself to everyone because they don't even know my existence. It sucks feeling like that but I'm used to being in the shadows. It's quite comforting not having the pressure of standing in the limelight.

So here are the morals:
• I am probably going to delete my academic endeavour posts, I have school and I will probably be busy
• Don't wear shorts unless you're totally sure it won't RAIN.
• Don't judge a book person by its cover their appearance.