day: thirty seven

It was such an uneventful day today. Even though it's the first day of school and all the teachers are all pretending to be so revved up about teaching a bunch of idiot boys, I found it as boring as last year. If not, even more. It wasn't as depressing as last year though, I was totally panicking about the fact that I knew practically nobody in my class. But this year was just same same, but different. The difference is that it is more boring.

To be frank (and derogatory), I couldn't give less of a fuck. I started my morning off well, I suppose. Not like other mornings where I literally get dragged out of bed. This time I just woke up with little hesitation and headed off to the shower. I'm planning to start doing morning showers because that's probably the only thing that will wake me up and not faint from sleep deprivation when I walk past the gates of doom, misery and death (aka. school). Exaggeration is so much fun!

Let this paragraph be about how much of a loner I am at school. Here are my classification of loners (ranging from less lonely to lonliest):

• Popular person lonely (i.e. where one claims to be lonely yet have 4631954262044257091 other friends to talk to and socialise)
• Attention seeking lonely (sort of the same thing)
• Lonely amongst friends (it's a broad spectrum but it's when you still have friends but you still feel lonely)
• Lonely amongst half-friends (same thing, but replace friends with "people who you deem your friends but don't actually like you that much)
• Plain lonely (there's actually nobody around you and you're not lying... you are lonely)
• Lonely and vulnerable (those kids in TV shows, because they always like to stereotype like the
  prejudiced bastards they are)

Now I'm between the "lonely amongst half-friends" and "plain lonely". To be more specific, it's "lonely-because-you're-sitting-in-the-corner-by-yourself-because-all-your-half-friends-have-found-somebody-else-to-sit-with-and-are-sitting-across-the-room-from-you". Apart from using the word "lonely" so many times in this post, the mental image of the young Britney Spears comes to mind singing "My loneliness is killing me". But we all know that's "popular person lonely"

I've used too many "quotation marks" today, so here are the morals:
• Never make goals when on holiday, you'll throw them in the bin once school/work starts
• Lonely comes in a variety of severities
• Every song in the world which has the word "lonely" in its lyrics are now stuck in my head. That sure is a popular word songwriters like to chuck in when their music sounds shit.
• I should stop by habit of cursing