day: seventy nine

Monday like the usual.

Science fresh in the morning. The teacher came late a bit, but that's okay. I did nothing productive anyway. I've learnt all of this stuff at tutor so I'm sure I'll ace this test (at least I think so). It makes me wonder how little detail they go through compared to my tutor.

Religion second period. Now this is my first time saying it, but I was actually interested in what the teacher had to say. She talked about the topic of 'happiness'. Obviously, at a boys school, nobody would want to show their vulnerabilities but I really thought that what she said was true. We just need to accept the fact that we don't need the if's in life and that we should be content with what we are presented with. We deal crap to other people when we aren't comfortable and content with our life. I guess that really made me reflect on what really happens. I don't know, just something made me relate to it so much.

Computer lab and commerce. We got our test results back and so I got 97% which I'm pretty happy about. I thought I'd get significantly less due to my limited capacity with economical discourse (I learnt that word in English class the day after). We're moving onto the business management section of the course and we're creating our own business. I find it really difficult to be partners with my friend. No offense, but I always seem to be so concerned about having to check it and correct his section of the work over and over again. I think I'm being really mean this year. I really hate it sometimes. Maybe it's time to correct myself.

Advanced maths. I didn't bring my mathematics set so I had to use a ruler with holes in it as my makeshift compass. We were doing this question posed by the teacher and this other guy got the answer and he seemed pretty happy about it. When I showed the teacher my result, she was pretty impressed about my different methods. I think I took away the spotlight of someone. He sort of looks like me, and in my eyes, he's just a better version of me wholly. I'm not sure if I upset him, but if I did, I am so sorry. I never want to take your confidence away. I find it quite uncomfortable being called the maths god. It makes me feel like I'm putting others' abilities in the shadow. This is why I hate being the leader. The thing that bothers me is, why am I bothered when there's a leader in our friendship group? Why am I just not happy being a follower? Enough with the philosophical questions.

So the morals are:
• I'm slowly starting to become more up myself
• Philosophical Mondays make my brain hurt
• I rant too much, hence, this blog
• These morals are boring, even I don't find them entertaining.